Who is Allah? What does Allah mean?
I hope you remember the person in Hazrat Moosa’s regime who used to sin again and again after asking for forgiveness. You got so angry at that man that You said You would never forgive him this time if he repeated the sin after forgiveness. Considering your message, he asked for forgiveness, but after a few days of resistance, he again committed the same sin.
YOU got so angry that You said:
” I will never forgive this man again. However, many times, may he repent”.
Hearing this verdict from YOU, he ran into the desert and started crying loudly.
”Ya ALLAH! How come you can not forgive me? Tell me, Ya Allah, what sin I have done which is more significant than your mercy? Are my sins greater than Your Mercy? If it is so, do not forgive me. Instead, write sins of all humanity on my part; I’ll take their sins as Hadiya! Hearing this, you said, “Musa! Go tell that man that his LORD has forgiven him. And will keep on forgiving him until he asks for forgiveness“.
Ask For Forgiveness:
Ya ALLAH! I’ll ask for your forgiveness in the same way. You are my first and last hope. If you will leave me, who else will support me? To whom should I refer? I know I have blackened the earth and sky with my sins. I know my sins are too much. I know I have always asked for forgiveness and still repeated the sin.
But YOU said you would forgive your slave even if his sins have blackened the earth and skies, oceans and heavens! Just if he asks for forgiveness.
Dear ALLAH! I am asking for your mercy. I beg you, do not leave me in this darkness I have chosen for myself. I need Your help, ya ALLAH. You are my only source of light, my only hope!
Dear ALLAH, tell me! Tell me which of my sins has crossed the limits of your mercy? Which of my sins is so great that your endless oceans of compassion have grown small! YOU said,
“Call upon Me; I will respond to you.”
Dear Allah, your slave is calling you. I am crying, ya ALLAH, hold my hand! Lead me to your path. I regret it! Dear ALLAH, I openly admit and regret my mistakes.
Accept me back. I know I have transgressed myself, but if YOU, too, leave me like others, I have no place to go. I will be left with no single piece of land on earth to stand upon. Please don’t leave me, Don’t leave me! Please, I beg they don’t leave me!
I feel guilty, and I crossed YOUR set limits willingly. None has the right to be worshiped but You (O Allah)). Glorified and Exalted is You, above all that evil they associate with You; I have been of the wrong-doers. I have been of the worst of the wrongdoers. I submit myself to YOUR will now! Accept me in your service, and never let my heart return to the darkness. I submit myself to YOUR will, my dear ALLAH! With a firm belief that you would never reject or refuse me.
Yours Truly, Servant!